Do I have enough strength for this?  Do I have enough faith that someone new will enter my life?  I feel like it hinges on that as long as she's moved on and happy with someone else, as long as I sit here alone.  It's a crisis of faith, as that's not what I'm supposed to put my faith in anyways.   

She's going with him to Australia.  For two weeks.  And I'll be here working on some level, and in vain, to try and win her back.  But she will never come back to me.

I want apply sweat and determination and work the problem, but she can't be solved.  I can't make her love me, and in my gut I know that I shouldn't have to, but despair washes over me anyways, and I feel worthless if I'm not good enough for her to want.  She's deceitful and she's selfish and I want her anyways.  How do you solve that?